baby boy Simba crossed the Rainbow Bridge on May 1st 💔🪽
I’m sorry if this brings back painful memories for anyone who has gone through similar heartbreaking final moments with their babies.
I’m heartbroken and in so much pain, guilt, and anger. Bobcat fever took his life. Looking back, I think he was in so much pain. He was meowing all night, and by the morning before we took him to the ER, every time we touched him, he almost screamed. I can’t forget him screaming in pain while looking at me on the way to the ER.
When we got to the ER, he was already on his way to heaven. We had to let him go before he went into cardiac arrest.
Initially, we noticed he was acting off on Monday, so we took him to the vet. Unfortunately, he was misdiagnosed with a stomach infection, and I was giving him medication with a very strong bitter taste that Simba hated until the very end of his life, even though it wasn’t helping him at all. I truly believed the medication I was giving him was saving him. We brought him back to the vet on Thursday because he wasn’t getting any better, and they started him on another medication. Then on Friday morning, we had to say goodbye. It happened so quickly I still cannot believe that this happened. He just turned to 6 years old too.
I blame myself so much for not being able to give him peace in his last moments, for not going to another vet for a second opinion, and for so much more. Instead, I was giving him medication that tasted horrible while he was literally dying.
I feel like I failed him. I don’t know what to do with this pain and guilt. All I wanted was to save him. I miss him so much. It feels like there’s a huge hole in my heart that nothing will ever be able to fill.
If anyone else has also lost their babies to bobcat fever, please feel free to share your experience if it helps you grieve. Hopefully your babies and Simba are playing together over the Rainbow Bridge. I promise he’ll be sweet to your babies. Thank you to everyone who stayed and read through this.
